This morning I had a strange dream - strange because it makes me think that I need to do a tarot reading to get some clarification. In the dream, I was with my husband and apparently we had just left a restaurant. It was almost as if we had been looking for Petunia (his ex) there, or had possibly thought she might be there. We were in the truck, and he was driving. He backed up out of the parking space, and the rear end of the truck was close to one of the windows of the restaurant. The back-up lights lit up enough that I could see inside the restaurant, and there was Petunia with her friend, Dan Blocker's Chin (DBC). It seems we had seen DBC when we were inside, but now Petunia was there. She was sort of bending over a table, probably attending to her toadler, Special Ed. I told the husband to stop and look, she was in the restaurant. So he saw her, too, and we re-parked and went inside. I don't know where my husband went, but in the next "scene," I was standing at a high counter near the cash register, and Petunia was a few feet away from me, sort of half-turned. There was a mirror or glass on my left side (she was to my right), and when I looked in the glass I could see that she kept looking at me, as if she wanted to get a good look at me or something. It amused me because she was pretending to ignore me. So I moved down toward her and asked her what she wanted to say to me. I was certain that she wanted to say something. Of course, she denied that she wanted to talk to me. I asked her 2 or 3 times, and told her I'd seen her reflection in the mirror looking at me, and what the hell did she want to say? Naturally, because it was a dream, she never said anything, and that's when I woke up.
So now I'm convinced that she has something she wants to say to me, and it's probably not anything nice. Still, it's intriguing that it should come through to me in a dream. I'm going to do a tarot reading today and see if I can get any inclination of what she's up to. The fucking bitch.
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Shaking off the demon
For those who have been reading, of whom I doubt there are many, I have a bit of an update on the woman known as Diana. Diana is an ex-friend who can't seem to understand that I want nothing to do with her, and is still apparently obsessing about me and my husband. I haven't checked, but I think the 90 day block on her calling/texting me has expired, so out of curiosity I'm leaving her unblocked just to see if she tries contacting me yet again.
Our mutual friend, Lugh, e-mailed me the other day and wants to get together with me and my husband for coffee sometime soon. He filled me in on what's been going on with him, and also with Diana and her little goddess group. Back when I was part of it, we brought our husbands/significant others into the group as "guardians" of the circle. The day we performed the ritual, my husband was accompanied by his patron god, the Zoroastrian demon (of sorts), Ahriman. Several of us knew that Ahriman was there; I could sense him before my husband even entered the circle. He actually behaved himself, but Diana freaked out and after that ritual, she railed on and on about Ahriman disrupting her, and how she was going to command him to do this and that.
As if a demon takes orders from a run-of-the-mill witch.
So Lugh told me that Diana and her little friends did a ritual to formally "dismiss" the circle guardians and relieve them of any obligation to the goddess group. Now, I can only think of two reasons she would have bothered to do this. Either she thinks my husband has been doing some magickal fucking around with her or the group, or she thinks that by releasing my husband, it will get rid of Ahriman. On the first point, my husband hasn't given a moment's thought to her or that group since Diana and I had our falling out; he's had too many health problems and other issues to care. On the second point, which I believe is the most likely, it's amusing that she would think that she could get rid of Ahriman so easily. At the time, it surprised my husband that he took an interest in Diana, because he's generally pretty selective about with whom he interacts. He doesn't waste his time showing himself to just anyone. The fact that he was around Diana even after that ritual shows that he has found her to be a source of amusement/interest. He came into the circle via my husband, but he is indeed a separate entity. And releasing my husband from service would not apply to Ahriman. He does what he does; he is a god. She would be awfully simple to think that she could get rid of him so easily. I suspect he's been hanging around bothering her. Well, she's undoubtedly discovered by now that he's still around. I think he's glommed onto her because she actually could be a powerful witch if she would get over the fear of embracing the so-called darkness. She needs to go into that abyss and face her fears; it will make her stronger and no doubt happier. She's a bit (okay, a LOT) neurotic.
Perhaps when we see Lugh I will learn the reason that she felt it necessary to do this ritual, and if Ahriman really has been messing with her. I rather like the thought, but then I'm perverse like that.
Our mutual friend, Lugh, e-mailed me the other day and wants to get together with me and my husband for coffee sometime soon. He filled me in on what's been going on with him, and also with Diana and her little goddess group. Back when I was part of it, we brought our husbands/significant others into the group as "guardians" of the circle. The day we performed the ritual, my husband was accompanied by his patron god, the Zoroastrian demon (of sorts), Ahriman. Several of us knew that Ahriman was there; I could sense him before my husband even entered the circle. He actually behaved himself, but Diana freaked out and after that ritual, she railed on and on about Ahriman disrupting her, and how she was going to command him to do this and that.
As if a demon takes orders from a run-of-the-mill witch.
So Lugh told me that Diana and her little friends did a ritual to formally "dismiss" the circle guardians and relieve them of any obligation to the goddess group. Now, I can only think of two reasons she would have bothered to do this. Either she thinks my husband has been doing some magickal fucking around with her or the group, or she thinks that by releasing my husband, it will get rid of Ahriman. On the first point, my husband hasn't given a moment's thought to her or that group since Diana and I had our falling out; he's had too many health problems and other issues to care. On the second point, which I believe is the most likely, it's amusing that she would think that she could get rid of Ahriman so easily. At the time, it surprised my husband that he took an interest in Diana, because he's generally pretty selective about with whom he interacts. He doesn't waste his time showing himself to just anyone. The fact that he was around Diana even after that ritual shows that he has found her to be a source of amusement/interest. He came into the circle via my husband, but he is indeed a separate entity. And releasing my husband from service would not apply to Ahriman. He does what he does; he is a god. She would be awfully simple to think that she could get rid of him so easily. I suspect he's been hanging around bothering her. Well, she's undoubtedly discovered by now that he's still around. I think he's glommed onto her because she actually could be a powerful witch if she would get over the fear of embracing the so-called darkness. She needs to go into that abyss and face her fears; it will make her stronger and no doubt happier. She's a bit (okay, a LOT) neurotic.
Perhaps when we see Lugh I will learn the reason that she felt it necessary to do this ritual, and if Ahriman really has been messing with her. I rather like the thought, but then I'm perverse like that.
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